feel lost sometime… just likes that’s gap between i and my "old friends"… friends who i know when i studying in Johor, buddy who i know when i was in Seremban, those funny fellow i meet in Tarc… i miss all of you~!!! miss u guys badlly~!!!

after i study in Klang, just likes i start lost contact with everyone… start lazy lazy gater with everyone… start busy on own things and study till no time for my friends… sometime really want to join their gathering when they invited me but i really can’t… i know i will start lost them longer time later cause of this… lolx…

how?.. how?.. how?.. i start jelous those friends who can always meet up and hanging around… i start regret on leaving them… i start miss those time when i always hang out with them whenever i want… really feel lonely when i think back those time… lolx… haiz… but, i can’t do anything also… +_+

i am trying my best to used to life without you guys… but, i won’t forget all of you lah… eh~ what can i said here is — Keep In Touch Always & Miss All Of You~!!! Muackz~!!!

suddenly feel confusing on everything happened around me… not only my future, my friendship, my communication with family, my life and of cause my relatioship…

i never regret on study culinary from the begining till now… meet some friends from this industry, i start wonder how much i know the reality of working life i will be facing later… not everyone can get a nice job actually… hope that everything will go smoothly… KAMBATEK~!!!

friends?.. this is a sweet word for me… but, not for now anymore… was i too childish till trust everyone?.. hahaha… before i know somebody, i  belive that "Friendship"… i changed my mind recently… totally changed… lolx… maybe i should not being kind for everyone and learn to protect myself from being hurt anymore… now i know what called as Friends and who are my friend… THANKS YOU my "true" friends who always care me and be with me… and THANKS somebody let me know that reality…

after form 4, that’s a problem between me and my parents… i can’t really find out the reason… is it cause i seldom stay home?.. even back home during weekend also just stay in my room… it become worst after i study in collage… i start not going back home although holiday… i feel pressure when facing my parents… sometime i really miss them and i back to home… but, something unhappy sure will happen and again i will regeret why i be home… lolx… i know that they just care me by using their way which i can’t accept… i LOVE my daddy & mummy… really… just i really don’t what i should do… lolx… SORRY if i always made you angry…

i am enjoying my school life even really tired after class… but, the time being home is really bored… have nothing to do… or can’t do anything while staying others home… i start missing the time when i still study in TARC… i can go here and there whenever i want… can do whatever i like… haiz~ why people only appreciate when something lost?.. it is too late but what to do?.. suddenly feel likes want to clubbing ah~!!! lolx… i better LOOK FORWARD and not keep thinking those "history"…

without noticing, i end up my first relationship a month already… really feel sad for the first few days but stand up again after word… lolx,,, sound likes cold blood on him… em~ don’t know how to describe my mood… some friends want me find a better guy and not keep thinking on the past… of cause i know i should do that and i will do that… ahahaha… eh~ but, really feel weird when some guys treat me well…  scared to being hurt again?.. maybe… i start lost my confident on start a relationship… and, start forget how the love feel likes… sound funny?.. i thinki so, but that really happen on me…wish  GOD BLESS ME meet my Mr Right soon loh~ lolx~

haiz~ i wonder why human have to grow up?.. why adult have so much to worry?.. why people can’t just be happy all of the time?.. why life is full with trouble?.. WHY WHY WHY~?!?!?! anyway, i will try my best and will never give up~ let’s work hard for it together~ !!!

meet you back after 3 weeks… a bit feel likes don’t know what to say and how to look at you… lolx… anyway, everything seem likes the same as before… should we glad on that?..

both of us still busy on own study now… is it the actual reason for not contact each other again?.. hahaha… maybe… that’s only what can i say…

yesterday you said that you want go China study… 2 years… u said clip eye then will pass already… is it true?.. i don’t know… i just know that i was shocked when heard about that… it is too sudden for me… when i said "Good Luck" to you, you said i sound likes really want you go there… you really feel that?.. i wonder how much you know me again…

when you said i not know you well, you won’t know how i feel… did you give me that chance to know you?.. if, i apologize on that… if not, how will i know you since you never tell me what u thinking actually?..

we don’t know each other much actually… that’s only conclusion for me… agree?.. lolx… i can’t deny that i still will think back those time, still will miss you… but, what can i do is just be your friend who support you all the time behind everyone…

Good Luck & all the best for every decision you make… true friend will always by your side… ^^ take care, dear…